If you are a regular around here you will know that I am currently studying a diploma of counselling. The way a person’s mind works has always fascinated me, how two people can look at the same object or situation and have two completely different outcomes will always manage to amaze me.
Most of the time these difference of opinions stem from our past experiences and domestication process, everything we have endured and lived through has somehow shaped and influenced how we come to such conclusions. Sometimes this is in positive light and others not so much.
This is the reason I decided to enrol and become a qualified counsellor. This is my motivation for completing my course. That and over the years I have developed a keen taste for eating regularly, running water, light switches and Mac foundation.
Like everyone else in the world, I need a job that is going to pay me to be able to do such things. I’d be lying if I said that salary wasn’t also a major factor in my motivation.
So my question today is this……Why do I procrastinate in my studies?
I have just 4 months left, I can literally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I still have a lot of work to do but I have restructured my life so I have adequate time to study without it causing me to have a meltdown. So why do I still procrastinate?
I’ve been in situations where I’m literally utilising each and every last second up until my assignment is due. Not proof reading either, actually writing and doing the body of the work with 30 seconds to spare. I think every student can agree that there’s a certain degree of prayer that also gets submitted along with your essay.
My poor tutor has actually dragged me kicking and screaming while lying and procrastinating… when I do finally get my diploma it pretty much belongs to the both of us. I’m sure she will be happy to see the back of me.
Personally I think a large part of this is just how I am wired. I have always left things to the last minute. I seem to get my best work done when I am surrounded by chaos. Sure at times it means you have a slightly increased heart rate, which I’ll admit is probably something to consider…
Sometimes I’ll do more in a day than a whole week. I would prefer to go hard and fast and then just chill and be lazy for the rest of it. Although at times it appears to be the other way around kind of like – Rest, chill, rest…. shit now I have to work like crazy to get it done in time.
I like to refer to myself as a lazy hard worker. I always work hard and try to do my best but if there is a short cut or a simpler way to do something, I’m going to find it. Work smarter not harder.
I don’t really know if this is a good quality or a bad quality, it doesn’t really feel like a good one but in the end everything seems to get done so is it really that bad?
I have 4 months to go so I’m probably not going to change my ways now but it got me thinking about others and how they commit to their studies. I’m sure there are many people out there who have a perfect routine in place and do a little each night; the assignment is always completed well before the due date and they have most likely already made a start on next weeks. This is probably the kind of person who had nailed adulting by their 18th birthday and will probably go on to cure diseases and end famine. (BTW thanks guys, we do appreciate your work)
I am not one of those people, and I have come to realise that that’s ok too. We all get there in the end, some of us just choose the steep inclined, windy, cobblestoney path.
Which one are you? Are you a straight and narrow or do you take the scenic tour like me?